Ramblings of a Sleep Deprived Mama

Bennett is now 5 weeks old and we have yet to get on a schedule. I better start one soon, because I go back to work in less than three weeks...YIKES!! It sometimes feels like his schedule is getting more and more off; he is starting to sleep more during the day and not so much at night. Of course, I do believe my child knows that he is slowly torturing me at night, because right when I have about had enough at night, I get him out of his bed praying he will go back to sleep, and he will look right at me, coo and smile. Melts my heart every time!

It is still weird for me to say the "kids" or the "children" instead of just Caiden. New flash to self...I now have 2 children! Get used to it!

Is it strange that I sometimes wish I was still in the hospital? Ok, really it didn't feel like a hospital, more like a hotel room, with a hospital bed in it. I mean come on...I had nurses and doctors at my finger tips if I had any questions, someone else to stay up with the baby all night long until I was ready for the baby in the morning, no worries about laundry or cleaning the house, visitors to chat with throughout the day...all I had to do was put my feet up and rest. I even had someone else to change most of the poopy diapers!!! How could you not miss it at times?

And while I was up in the wee hours of the morning one day, I found my mind wandering to Michelle Duggar...you know, the 19 children and counting woman from Arkansas. When was the last time she got to sleep through the night? She has been pregnant or had a newborn for like the last 20 years or something, and I know she breastfeeds, so no one else can get up for the midnight feedings. I have been doing it for 5 weeks...maybe the last 3 months if you count my inability to go all night long without peeing in my last couple of weeks of pregnancy....and I just can't WAIT to sleep for 6 or 7 hours at night.

What a week

Midway through my first week home as a mommy of two has gone pretty smoothly. What a difference it makes to have daddy home. Next week when he goes back to work could be interesting. Caiden isn't real excited about going to school right now, but I think it's because he knows we are at home. Once he gets there, he enjoys it.

And speaking of school, Daddy stayed home with Bennett this morning and I went on my first outing since Bennett joined our family. After taking Caiden to school and a quick trip to Wal-Mart, I stopped by the elementary school and picked up the paperwork to register Caiden for Kindergarten. I want to cry just thinking about it (and it has nothing to do with hormones, I swear). My baby going to school! If you remember, back in August of last year I started him in a new daycare center/preschool. It was rough going for the first couple of weeks, and I dread doing that all over again for Kindergarten. I'm hoping to send him to the same school as one of his preschool buddies so he at least knows one person.

Bennett is doing wonderful. A nurse came to our home on Monday to check up on him and me, and we both passed with flying colors. He is back up to 8lbs 10 oz after being down to 8lbs 6oz the day we left the hospital. He is letting mommy get about 4 hours of sleep at a time at night, which is AWESOME. I cannot complain one bit about it. It is still tough getting up in the middle of the night, and when he does get up, he stays awake for about 2 hours before he goes back to sleep, but still, I get FOUR HOURS OF SLEEP AT ONE TIME!! For those of you who don't know, when Caiden was a baby, he didn't sleep at night, at all. He would finally fall asleep between 5 and 7 in the morning.

So, all in all, it has been a wonderful week so far!